Once you missed that chance, you can never get it back. This year, people have show me how difficult it is to be dreaming. Getting blame for something i never do, get treated like hell and feeling sad, hurt and tearing for guys i barely know. I'm such an useless ass, huh. No words and actually describe what i'm really feeling and going through. Loving someone and holding on tight with him also so difficult. As though people around me, hate to see us happy together. What i actually did to get all this. GOSH! I'm just feel freaking confuse. I'm so HURT! I'm so MAD! What am i suppose to do!!! I can't even contact to my boyfriend. Where is he??

Well, today was Debbee's 3yr old celebration. Her theme was "Hello Kitty"!!! I got a cute butterfly on drawn on my face and a rainbow on my hand. HAHA!! Good news!! I'm gonna have another niece or nephew!!!! Well, Isabella's & KhidirHONEY's & Dominic's birthdays are coming!!!!:)


OKAY! About today! Today i didn't go school. Thought of fetching Baby from school @ 4pm. But he too also didn't go to school. Make me so stressed up. Set alarm at 7am to wake him up. Handphone got problem so can't call through to him. Called Dominic for help but he can't contact him too. Tried calling his house but no one picked up. Idk what to do sia. Want to sleep but can't sleep sia. Finally he brother picked up e phone and he told me his brother was bathing. What a relief. So i waited for him to call me back. But nothing sia. So keep trying. Then syg fianlly picked up at around 9am plus. So damn sad luh, he broke his promise to me again. So didn't want to meet me sia. Then he called and messaged me. Finally, replied him. He wants to meet me, so do i(actually). Waited for him so long. Say fast fast come down in the end 12.30 then come. The truth was that idk if i should be mad at him or what. After meeting him, i didn't feel a bit furious towards him sia.
Anyway, today head is that i'm so HAPPY that he came my house. He finally got e chance to come over my house. HAHA! He is happy too sia. Though he was afraid of my daddy. heehee. But we get to watch movie outside alone. I closed my parent's room door. Everything was so sweet!! I LOVE IT MAN!!! I also love you honey... Come my house again okay..


Here are some pictures of Honey and i for our 4th month make-up. It was suppose to be on Sunday 10May09, but he stood me up. So we had it on Monday 11May09. Lucky that i didn't have to go school that day. So early early morning went to his house. CONFLICT* Then we left at 3pm? Hmm, we headed to town. Watched Star Trek!! It was so wonderful that day. I LIKE~!!! heehee. Went home quite late luh. ( well, Bb, i said that because i want you to remember what you ever did. Not making you seem bad. Just want you to keep your promise and carry on changing to a better boyfriend, alright:) But no matter what, i'll still be there to help you) I LOVE YOU!!